Thursday, April 6, 2023

Randoms.

post by Casey.



Last week (j/k…it’s been at least a few weeks now that this post has been sitting in my drafts:) was a whirlwind and for once I can say that had nothing to do with exhaustion (maybe slightly;) or illness running through the house…but just all.good.things (mostly?!;).

March is always a pretty fun month - we celebrate 4 birthdays:). But it was also my 40th birthday - March 23rd - and Jacob and I chose March 25th as the day we would have our marriage blessed by the church. I’ve got so much to say about both - no surprise;) - but I’ll save those for a separate, more lengthy, post:).


Jacob, myself andddd Evan:) went on a Birthday Date Day. We drove N to Bayfield, WI…stopping at several little coffee shops along the way! We did a little thrifting and exploring and a lot of driving and catching-up:). We ended the day with Jacob pulling me, Theo and Homer out of bed to see the Northern Lights. This was a first for me and such a magical way to begin my 40th year:).

my heart.


We had mine and Mals annual Birthday Dinner and I showed up to a pretty hilarious (and inappropriate;) surprise!!!;) My sisters and brother-in-law had printed a tank top for everyone to wear!! The kids all tried to talk me into letting them wear them to school the next day - omg…NO;).


Life has, otherwise, been rather quiet…in the best way. The chickens are laying again! We’re trying to read from the Bible with the kids every night - it’s never quiet and have you ever tried to pronounce Oholibamah;) (that’s the granddaughter through Anah of Zibeon the Hivite - if you didn’t already know;)
Even though I don’t feel like they’re listening and there’s so much even I don’t understand…I feel like the payoff in trying will be worth it. Just continuing to take the next right step, even when it’s not the easiest:).
And then something about having chosen to celebrate our marriage in the church has felt like the next right step. And the next right step feels like the right direction…there was a lot of peace in that…and don’t get me wrong…I’m still failing out here. What I’ve deemed my ‘Peaceful Forties’ feels downright doable - says the girl who’s been 40 for 5days - j/k…it’s now been 14days but 14 good days).
I hesitate to get too used to or excited about these positive feelings because I have my own personal struggles…but every step towards God has felt big and emotional and hopeful and helpful and…good.

My Bacon Cheese Fries vs Pinterest;):). BUT they got ate:).

In pursuit of being a more helpful housewife and mama…I started meal planning. Which isn’t fun for me. BUT after only a week, I can see the fruits of that planning:). Cooking at the end of the day - with 5 kids underfoot and 1 in my arms - isn’t my idea of funnnn but having a plan is proving to make it less…not fun;).

Spring and sun, giving me life:)
Since this photo was taken, our dryer stopped working…the current 40mph winds are making it hard for me to use the line but we’re contemplating line drying for the spring/summer/fall. Anyone have tips on how to avoid crunchy clothes?;)

Evan and her smile…giving me life!!!;):)

Some recent thrifting finds:).

Thrifted earrings ($.89), gifted necklaces and my grandmas ring (priceless), thrifted dress ($6.50), and new heels ($56):).

“…if I have faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing…” 
- 1 Corinthians 13:2-8


We have a 9yo (again;):)! I can’t believe my first born baby girl is 9:). It really does feel like just yesterday that I got a positive pregnancy test in a gas station bathroom on a road trip to Florida:). It feels like time stands still for me…I’m simultaneously frozen in time and hyper aware of how quickly it’s passing:(. 
Being a mom has been my favorite thing in the world. We love you, Theo Daisy:)

Future thrifter;):).

A 9yo figuring out what a portable CD player is in real time!!;) I went out on a limb with this idea - she wanted some sort of portable music player. I wasn’t willing to throw her to the wolves/propaganda machine that is pretty much all media these days. This way we’ll be able to continue to try and filter what comes into our homes and into her little mind and heart! AND St. Vinnies sells CDs for just $.99:).
The CD player we purchased her, here
The website I used to find a few new CDs, here.

 Being a mom is hard and awesome:).

Jacobs been working on his espresso art;):). And I also can’t drink plain ol’ coffee anymore - I got a beautiful espresso machine for my bday and I loveeeee it!

We VOTED!!!:) We lost:( BUT we voted and we hoped. Regardless of the outcome, we are in good hands:).


And now just a couple things I found interesting this week:).

Did you know the US gives over $950million dollars to Uganda every year?

Below are a couple of quotes I loved from this episode of The Highwire. 
You can listen here.

“…and we started to learn how to understand our own emotions and how to bring awareness to that. And we started to learn tools on how to bring ourself from a stressful, anxious place down to a calm, peaceful place. I had the biggest aha moments there where I thought: oh my goodness, I’m 41 and I’m learning this. How much more powerful would I have been as a leader if I had learned this as a child…how to master my own emotions. How to pull tools out of my own pocket and say: okay, I’m very anxious right now, I’m going to take myself to a calm and peaceful place and I’m gonna breath through this. And I’m never gonna be a victim and I’m not gonna blame others for my emotions…”

- Leila Centner, Centner Academy


“…when we sold our company we kept saying we’ll be happy when, we’ll be happy when. Going to India and learning everything…no no no! Happiness is right here, right now, always. It’s at your fingertips. Do you want it? If you want it, it’s easy. And so teaching the kids happiness is right here, right now…it’s attainable, it’s in your hands and it’s your choice…”

- Leila Centner, Centner Academy

Happy Holy Thursday, friends.










Monday, April 3, 2023

April 4th.

 post by Casey.



2 controversial posts back to back…*deep breath*…here we gooooo…


I wish I knew exactly what it was that lead me to switch ‘sides’. From ProChoice (I’m going to refer to it as ProAbortion going forward) to ProLife. 

I keep thinking that if I knew what it was exactly that opened my eyes to the truth about what abortion is and what abortion does, I’d be able to share that with you and it would change minds and hearts, just as it did for me. But I know it’s not that simple. 


I believed I was ProAbortion prior to having my own children. 

I believed I was ProAbortion after having birthed my first baby. 

I believed I was ProAbortion, even still, after having my first miscarriage - the mental gymnastics I had to do to mourn that loss of life but still deny that it was a life at all?!.

I believed I was ProAbortion while listening to and watching Theos heart beating on the screen at only 6-1/2wks gestation. 

This disconnect between what was my body and the baby’s body would go on for many years. 


Looking back, I’m thankful for the endless little conversations and questions (and fights;) with Jacob on these topics. I didn’t have any solid argument and I refused to look at the statistics - see those below. Gosh…I’m thankful for a husband that didn’t bow down to my beliefs or force his on me but instead, was faithful in helping, guiding and just truly believing that I would find my way.

I’m thankful for the accurate and horrifying videos that exist to accurately depict what abortion is - below I’m sharing 2 videos. The first may be difficult to watch but I hope that you do. Then watch the 2nd video, which glosses over what’s actually happening during an abortion. Pay attention to what is and isn’t said and the language being used.



2nd Trimester (usually preformed between 14-22wks).
You can watch the above video here.
The glossed over version here.


Language is important here…A tube or forceps are used to remove the ‘pregnancy’. 

Here is what ‘pregnancy’ looks like. THIS is what is being removed. Unfortunately, abortion not only ‘removes a pregnancy’…it absolutely ends a life.
In Minnesota you can get an abortion for any reason, up until ‘viability’ - which can be 24-26weeks (see above).

You can find all state guidelines here.

When I started truly believing in the sanctity of life…maybe even as I’ve begun to believe in God and the importance of that belief…it’s, honestly, shifted my entire life. Things and days and kids and life…they’re all still…hard. But it’s somehow different. And becoming different…better…more peaceful. Hard and peaceful;).


“Hard is not the same thing as bad.” 

- Abbie Halberstadt, M is for Mama


I fear the further we get from God…the less we believe in that, if we don’t believe in that…we might be more inclined to have more fear around what’s to come. The fear of death. The fear of hardship…of suffering on any level. 


Hard is not the same thing as bad. 


I’d argue that some of my own life’s biggest lessons come not during a season of ease but of discomfort, struggle, sacrifice…?



Have you heard of MAID? 

MAID is Medical Assistance in Dying (in Canada - yes, it’s very real). You can find out the requirements to qualify for medical assistance in dying here.

More recently they’ve tried to add having a ‘mental illness’ to the list of qualifying criteria.

The following Boomclap Podcast episodes touch on this and morality, among other things. I really encourage you to listen - there are too many good ones. OR just go ahead and join the BoomClap Community HERE:)!


Episode 60: CRT and Abortion with Samuel Sey


Episode 72: Loss of Moral Objectivity: The Root of Societal Problems…and Updated CDC Guidelines


Episode 73: Lazy Journalism, Morality Part 2 and Assisted Suicide


Episode 80: Prayer, Voting and the Way to Enact Lasting Change



Okay…because I truly believe SO much of this is intertwined…it’s difficult not to get off track. All I really know is that it always circles back to God, for me. God is the way. God is life. 

When we start to choose ease and any way to avoid struggle…I believe we miss out on so much. I too would prefer not to have to suffer in any way…but I know - from the bit of experience I do have - that there can be such beauty on the other side of it. There are people out there with much much harder stories than mine and yet they still have something very worthwhile to share. They still have purpose and their lives, meaning. What if they had given up? What if they had been encouraged to give up? What if they’d never been born at all?



On April 4th, vote for life. Pray for life - of the unborn babies and their mothers.


I’m so thankful that when I look at my babies now…I see how they’re perfect, unique, purposeful little lives began the very moment of conception and they’ve been alive and living and worthwhile and perfectly made…for such a time as this…ever since.



Man. I don’t know what life will hold but the only guarantee with abortion is that you’ll never have the opportunity to find out. 

Life is just so so fucking precious. An incredible gift. I used to think they were most fragile while growing inside me but that was clearly the safest place for them. The hard - not bad:) - work has just begun. 



Find your local polling place, here.











Friday, March 31, 2023

Prayers for Nashville.

post by Casey.





At times it feels sort of exhausting to share and there really are so few people who make their way to this blog and so it sometimes feels ridiculous to even share at all. But then when I think about not sharing…I just don’t have it in me not to say…something.


It reminds me of when Jacob and I first started having the conversation about possibly having the kids baptized - when the kids were born we didn’t have any solid beliefs and chose not to baptize them because it didn’t feel like it meant anything to us.

10yrs later I walked into the office of my kids’ little Christian school and asked the secretary (Hi, Barb - she’s not actually reading this and I doubt she even knows I have a blog;) what steps we’d have to take to get the kids baptized - IF we decided to go forward with that. Barb proceeded to share with me that she had been praying for this. Barb had been praying, behind our backs;), that we would someday want to baptize the kids. Although, her praying for us is the most important part of this…the little part where she simply spoke the words to me…that she said out loud that she’d been praying for us…that affected me most deeply. I don’t know exactly why but to this day, just knowing that she was out there thinking and praying for my babies…it changed something for me. I went home and said to Jacob that I felt like I really wanted to do it:).


When I start to think that it’s not worth speaking on something I care about…I think about the times where I’ve been changed because of someone speaking up. I think of the time Barb told me about her prayers for Homer, Theo, Rocky, Ike, Mae + Evan…and then I think…it’s worth it. It’s always worth it because I do believe that what I have to say (what anyone has to say) will reach the right person at the right time and in the mean time…I’m planting little seeds.


Below I’m going to share what I’ve been listening to in regards to the recent Nashville School Shooting. I wish I could articulate how I feel about these things but these podcasts do a much better job than I ever could - I also included some quotes from the episodes that resonated with me

You may notice they all lean or are conservative and that’s simply because that’s how I feel and that is absolutely what I believe - this coming from someone who felt very much the opposite just 2yrs ago

I don’t believe that this is a gun issue but a moral/spiritual one. 

What happened to those innocent children…those babies…is horrific. I’m actually comforted by the fact that I know the individual that killed those 3children and 3adults is now most certainly in hell, where she will spend eternity paying for what she’s done.

I pray for those children and those families and I pray that tragedies like this will lead more people to God. 


Listen to this episode here.

“…we have a moral decay that is overtaking America. We have a destruction of family issue that is overtaking America. We have an issue of not authentically caring for children, even if we have a family structure…are we legitimately committed to our children or are our children our side hussle while we go out and pursue as much money as humanely possible.”


“…we have a spiritual problem that is leading to chaos and violence and disorder and a lack of respect and a lack of gratitude. We all see ourselves as tremendous victims. When you see yourself as a victim and you think the world owes you something you start going about getting what the world owes you by any means necessary. You become angry. And so when I look at this woman who did the shooting and I think about how - these are connected, even tho this woman is white, it’s all connected…- the whole messaging to the trans gender community is America hates you and the Christian values that America has is the reason you’re unhappy. If America, if the culture just saw you as normal, you would be so much happier and your life would be so much better…”


“…if you saw yourself as an image bearer of God and not whatever your sexuality or gender…if you saw yourself as an image bearer of God, then you would be a step closer towards happiness. Then you would be a step closer towards contentment with how God made you. But if you let the world define who you are and what your primary identity is, if you let the world define that rather than letting God define it, you’re gonna have a lot of unhappiness. You’re gonna start to build up a lot of anger and that anger and unhappiness can spill out into the kind of tragedy we had here in Nashville yesterday…”


“…I see this going on with young people that are gay or transgender or whatever they want to call themselves. They’re being fed a steady diet of: America owes you something. You’re a victim. You should be angry. The world has mistreated you. You’re not an image bearer of God. You’re black. You’re gay. You’re lesbian. You’re bisexual. You’re transgender. You’re minor attracted person…”


“…as a believer…our message should always be: you have a spiritual problem that only Jesus Christ can fix. There are not political solutions to spiritual problems. That hole in your heart can only be filled through a relationship and an understanding of God and his order and his design for you.”


“…when I look at the Nashville shooting, and any of these school shootings. The way to eliminate it is a society and a culture that’s more obedient to God. Because when we were more obedient to God than we were right now, there were less school shootings. Guns have been around in America from its inception. This kind of random violence, this kind of mass slaughtering of innocence…that’s a new phenomenon that’s been brought on - in my opinion - by the constant messaging from atheists. That every single one of you is a victim - except for the white man - everybody else, you’re a victim. This country has mistreated you, you’re owed something, you should be angry, you should go out and demand, you should go out and get in peoples faces…”


“…it’s good to pray for our families, for our children, for our loved ones, for our teachers, and just for our culture because the culture is sick. Because the people are sick. Those are some of the main things that came to mind yesterday. This morning, having seen the bodycam footage of the officers who responded, I was just reminded of the heroism of so many police officers. They don’t know what types of things they’re going to encounter in a given day. Seeing that video - it was night and day in terms of their response and the response of Uvalde, 2 similar types of incidents. I thank god for those brave men.”

- Delano Squires


“…everyone says: we need more common sense gun laws. We need common sense gun control. But the conversation never goes further than that. Now what I would respect someone saying is: we need to repeal the 2nd amendment so that access to firearm ownership is no longer a right but a privilege that is enjoyed by a subset of the population that the government gets to determine. Now hear me, I didn’t say I would agree with that. I would say I would respect that because that is an actual position and I always respect positions delivered in stark, unambiguous nonufamistic language more so than empty platitudes. And the majority of what we get in the political discourse, whether from journalists at MSNBC, and CNN, and NY Times…from athletes and even from many politicians, is just common sense gun control. But when you ask them what it is that they want, either they can’t articulate it or the things that they articulate are already in place or the things they articulate would not have prevented the most recent event that they’re responding to. I would much rather prefer people say exactly what they mean.”

- Delano Squires


“…schools, churches and other institutions that house vulnerable populations…majority women or children or elderly should be the first places that we harden and that’s what we would do if we really cared as much as we say we do.”

- Delano Squires


Listen to this episode here.

“…it is a targeted terrorism towards Christian’s, that is made permissible by…the dismissal of that aspect of the story. The open and unabashed anti-Christian sentiment that is like one of the only acceptable forms of bigotry in Hollywood and the mainstream and politics. Like if this happened at a synagogue, if this happened at a mosque, if this happened at pulse night club…no one would question whether or not the type of people in that particular building were being targeted because of their belief system…no one would questions that. But when it happens at a Christian school, when it happened at a church in Texas a few years ago…apparently, the Christian aspect of it should just be overlooked. And that if Christian’s bring this up, it’s a victim complex. You’re thinking about this too hard. This is nothing to do with that. Why does it have nothing to do with that when other scenarios with every other kind of group it’s immediately assumed it has to do with that - it’s immediately assumed that it had to do with the identity or the religion or the skin color of the people inside the building that was targeted.”


“…I don’t care. I don’t care. I don’t care that that person carried pain. Guess what, news flash, we all carry pain. We all had hard childhoods in some way. We were all made fun of. We were all bullied. We were all rejected. We all have felt different. We were all pushed to the side. We’ve all been confused. We’ve all had a hard time, okay?! No, I do not relate to this person shooting up a school. Maybe let’s toughen up a little bit and deal with normal human difficulty and trials without murdering 9yos.“


“…we’ve demolished the family. We continue to ostracize any normalcy, we continue to degrade any idea of objective morality and we’re surprised when things like this happen. We’ve always had guns, we have not always had this value system. We have not always had these depraved set of principles that we have today that is all about me, me, me. Our young people are crying out for what every human since the beginning of time has cried out for…which is purpose. Which is meaning. Which is a call to something higher. So when the progressive left says you can join our revolution, you can latch onto social justice, you can identify in this way. You can join this oppressed group, then you will have meaning, then you will have identity, then you will have something deeper, then you will have some kind of pseudo spirituality. Some kind of militant religion. Of course these lost agnostic, atheistic young people are going to cling to that.”


“…I’m not saying that we can not have conversations ever about any kind of legislation - I’m not saying that. I’m not one of those people. I’m just saying if we continue to ignore the heart of the issue, what underlies all of this, the raging culture war that is actually down stream from a theological war, a spiritual battle that’s going on…we will continue to see these things happen. We will.”


“…let this tragedy not scare you or intimidate you but inspire you to double down in speaking that and representing that and doing that which is right and true. Do not be a part of the delusion thats tearing this country apart. Do not be a part of the lie. Agree with God, publically, privately, and in every area of your life whether it comes to gender, sexuality, the family, true biblical justice, what is right, what is wrong. Teach it to your kids relentlessly. Preach it at your church pastors, relentlessly. Tell it to your friends. Post it on social media. Live it in your daily life. Represent the gospel in all that you think, say, and do. Be a refuge of clarity and courage for the cowards in your life and within your community. That is what Christian’s are called to do today. That is what we have been called to do for thousands and thousands of years. And trust that God is doing something about all of this.”


This video really resonated with me - sent to us by our Deacon a few mornings ago. So much of what he said has been my path to God as well. 
Well worth the 25min.:)
You can watch here:).

“Over the past 3yrs I accidentally found myself getting more Christian, like without even intentionally trying…setting out on a mission like: Hey, I wanna become more Christian! It’s just been effortlessly happening for me.”


“If you’re not someone who is willing to do the devils bidding. If you’re not someone who’s willing to propagate evil, then there’s a natural occurrence that happens when you’re in the presence of evil…you polarize to the other extreme. You may not even be consciously aware of it but the presence of evil makes you lean away…therefore, what direction are you leaning towards…that would be the direction of God.”


“…people who have faith in a real higher power, God, they’re not controllable…when you have faith in God, you are not controllable, you’re not…anyone who wants to control you, purposely tries to disconnect you from God because Gods way is freedom. Evil constricts, God frees. God gives us free will…”


“…a life of service is what births true happiness…”


“…I think we live in a world where we’re discouraged from changing our mind. It’s like frowned upon to change your mind. What if we learned to frown upon never changing our mind and give ourselves impeccable permission to change our minds. Because if you never change your mind, guess what, you’re not growing, you’re not learning…you are what’s called: staying stuck…“


A very interesting conversation - I especially liked 3:00-31:00.
You can find this episode here.

“There’s a poll circulating today from the Wall Street Journal and it’s a 25yr poll - meaning they conducted this same poll 25yrs ago. They wanted to see today the percent who say these values are very important to them and they did 5 different categories. 

Patriotism went from 70% down to 38%. Religion, what we’re talking about now, 62% back in 1998…today it’s 39%. So your religion has dropped by 50%. Having children 59% down to 30%. 

Money’s the kicker here. Went from 31% of people who say this value is very important to them, up to 43%. It’s the only one that improved. 

People are less patriotic, less religious, they’re having less children - they care 1/2 as much about having children and then even community involvement is down. So everything across the board is down but making more money is more important. And it connects directly to religion because what you thought once upon a time was, God’s gonna provide for us and so money’s great, our family is very important - what we’re doing right here inside these walls. Me, my wife and kids, we’ll get it figured out and God will provide to us. We’re gonna keep seeking after his will for us…and everything else will work out.

Today people don’t care about their family. They don’t even think they need kids. You talk to the feminist today - they think they don’t need religion, they don’t need God. If you don’t think you need God, you have to provide for yourself.”

- T.J. Moe 


I know from experience that a name alone, the person the message is coming from can immediately shut someone down. I share Tucker Carlson knowing that it will immediately be passed by most - and he was passed by me just a few years ago, too. Put your blindfold on and listen only with your ears:).
You can listen here.


“…the fact that so many Americans have a firearm within reach but never commit violence tells you that guns are not the problem. Most people in this country can be trusted with an AR-15, just as we can be trusted with cars and light air crafts and electricity and baseball bats and insecticide and chain saws and pruning sheers and countless other objects that could easily double as weapons. 

On some level, all of us understand this. The problem is always the person, not the tool he uses to commit a crime. If you wanted to stop murder you would focus on the people who are committing murder, not the hundreds of millions of their neighbors who are not.“


Listen to this episode here.


“…these are 2 worldviews directly opposed to each-other. The transgender/lgbtq, the far left believe that man is God and that there is no God and that they get to decide what you are and…basically, that they’re God. And those of us who are believers, we’re idiots. We’re stupid for thinking that our rights and powers and our identity comes from god…”


“…there’s something about my own childhood that I just want every kid to experience. My childhood was awesome. It was hopeful. It was filled with: you can do anything. We’re not giving that to kids right now. We’re giving them a victims mentality and a mentality that America is the worst place on the planet, when we know that’s just not factually true. We can tell it…I just saw a video earlier this morning, thousands of people running across our southern border. Thousands at one time, running, desperately running across our southern border. And they want you to believe that Americas the land of racism and perfected racism…why are all these people of color running across our border to get in here? Why are people all over the globe breaking their backs to get in here. Why are Africans, black Africans, hoping they can punch their lottery ticket and live here in America? It’s a lie.”